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I’ve figured out some of the cause of my self-consciousness and always feeling like I’m not good enough…being yelled at whenever I do something wrong, or not to my dad’s liking, or being looked down by my grandma, or my mom getting mad and constantly bringing up mistakes I have made in the past..Literarily anything I do that is wrong.. I am criticized out loud and yelled at sometimes because my dad gets aggrivated even if I don’t understand something..growing up he always picked on me and sometimes he wouldn’t understand why I thought I was fat, why I don’t like myself or anything like that…. I made a couple mistakes within a year and a half and my mom told me I needed to get my life together and they weren’t huge mistakes.. Everyone judges and makes comments, yells and forces their opinions down my throat and always ruins my excitement and honestly it’s making me more of who I don’t want to be.. Making me feel like shit.. Family is supposed to be there for you not tear you down.. I don’t think they realize or even would understand.. I just walk away now and even when I walk away I am judged… Told I need to grow up and stop being a bitch because I walked away.. When simply that’s all I did was walk away when there was a pause in the conversation because I didn’t want to be yelled at and argue.. And honestly, I wonder if I’ll ever be good enough…